mistakes

 ok yes it's a mistake. i know it's a mistake but there are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake, because the only way to really know it's a mistake is to make the mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. so, really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you go to your whole life not really knowing something is a mistake or not, and damn it i've made no mistakes! i've done all of this my life, my relationship, my career mistakefree.. does any of this make sense to you-lily aldrin (how i met your mother)


u never knew that something is a mistake, unless u make the mistake and then, u will know that was a mistake. just now, someone told me the same thing like what ckgu Sariah told me two years ago. how many times i think back, and ask the same question over and over again, "is this a mistake??" every time i went to 'that' place, i saw them, questions played in my mind. "why did i choose this path?" "is this the right decision?" "i supposed to be wearing it" "who am i supposed to be if i choose that path?".. if i choose the first chance, i could be with R now.. when the second chance came, if i used the second chance, i could be with princess right now. we could know each other. think of it, i asked for the best from Him, He gave the best. this is might be the fate.. if i took the first chance, i might not be in my lovely KMKN, i might not know princess, i might not create those great memories there, i might not be so close with R, i might not still be in touch with F. those memories wont be in my mind. i might not know S, saida, siti and everyone else in KmkN. the second chance?? i dun know yet what will i miss if i take the second chance. maybe, my 3years future me, would know thw answer, perhaps when future me read this thing, she will give the answer. and i really wish the answer is " its okay leka, that was not a mistake".


 "But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not."
(Al-Baqarah:216)